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Continuity

Tue, 05 Mar 2013 15:07:00 -0500

When you were young you were so beautiful. What happened?

Did you change or did I? When did you become this thing? This keepsake? This memento that only clutters my life but which I cannot yet bare to throw away?

It’s hard to talk to you, hard to read your words - just- no easy way to express how I don’t care…

About your kids or your house, about your spirituality or your job; about how happy you are now that you’re finally settling into life. Life isn’t a puzzle. There are no hard edges to find, no border that makes the picture easier to put together. Or at least, there doesn’t have to be. That jigsaw you’ve preserved under heavy glass, none of it is you.

Once you were all about how the wave wins in the end. Grinding bodies back into the ocean, back to where we come from.

I miss the you that was metaphor. High pain threshold. Skinned knees. Goddamn you were something special when you were a failure.

Spectacular. Crushing. Always reaching. Overreaching. Wet, aching, bruised, sharp.

And I am sure that there is a lesson here. I am sure that if this were something we could talk about you would say, “Well, people change.” Okay. But, change into what?

And what ever happened to just becoming more and more who we are, anyway?

Apotheosis.

When did you stop being everything and when did you become this thing that only reminds me of how once you were everything?

When you were young you were so beautiful. What happened?

Did you change or did I?

Photo

Wed, 04 Jan 2012 22:06:43 -0500

A formidable and mysterious magic A slightly sexed up version...

Sat, 24 Dec 2011 05:23:00 -0500

A formidable and mysterious magic

A slightly sexed up version of a tattoo design I did tonight for an old and cherished friend. She wanted me to do it quickly and off the cuff. By this time tomorrow it will be inked into her skin, a lovely expression of the trust and the bond that exists between us.

0-71641-30001: churchofcyberpunk: neverlandnow: AFP -...

Fri, 23 Dec 2011 15:12:21 -0500

0-71641-30001:

churchofcyberpunk:

neverlandnow:

AFP - Indonesian sharia police are “morally rehabilitating” more than 60 young punk rock fans in Aceh province on Sumatra island, saying the youths are tarnishing the province’s image.

Since being arrested at a punk rock concert in the provincial capital Banda Aceh on Saturday night, 59 male and five female punk rock fans have been forced to have their hair cut, bathe in a lake, change clothes and pray.

Up the punx! Fucking disgusts me that these kids have to go through this Fuck religion, fuck conformists, and fuck their apologists in every era and in every context.

Purveyors Of The Arcane

Fri, 23 Dec 2011 03:59:41 -0500

We can show you how it works, for a price.

The real

Fri, 23 Dec 2011 02:19:48 -0500

The real

MMXI

Fri, 23 Dec 2011 02:01:10 -0500

johnharrigan:

It has been an incredible year, filled with heartache, joy and love.

Thank you to every audience member, artist, collaborator and friend who has continued to support my words and art with FoolishPeople and Weaponized.

2012 will be like nothing we’ve ever experienced. Stay safe and well over the holidays.

Signing off for 2011.

See you on the other side.

Some of the realest cats I know. Straight up dedicated to their art. Inspirational.

On the shores, organic machinery spread like yielding thighs;...

Tue, 20 Dec 2011 16:47:00 -0500

On the shores, organic machinery spread like yielding thighs; eager hands built to guide us in. Everything hypertransitional, skin rupturing, while inside her conch shell it all slowed to a stop. Sight like time lapse photography watching the infection spread.

Breathe in. Don’t blink; it’s not over yet.

Ghost SummerOccasionally I get an email from her. Always short....

Tue, 20 Dec 2011 12:13:00 -0500

Ghost Summer

Occasionally I get an email from her. Always short. Always sweet. Just to tell me I found my way into her sleeping head. She never tells me what I do in there and I never ask. Feels good to know she can’t forget that summer though.

It was doomed by distance, really we only had that one season in the theater, and like most things from childhood, no matter how good our intentions we inevitably misplace each other.

Then again we always manage to find each other too, even if it’s just an email, or a dream.

Why should it be like this? Some people just stick I guess. We never did more than hold hands because I never worked up the nerve to kiss her, even though I thought about it every day that summer. She baked me cookies I painted for her.

And then there were the letters after letters; once she told me she still had them. I didn’t have the heart to tell her what happened to the ones she sent me.

She asked me to Vegas when she was going to be out there on business, That didn’t work out, except for maybe as a metaphor.

I stayed at her house one October, it was the first time we’d seen each other since we were kids. Turned out she was still the most beautiful girl I knew; just like when we were kids. Sitting on the couch with her, watching a movie while she knitted, it was impossible to not be like, “Damn, this could be my life.”

And for a minute that felt real good. For a minute I almost leaned in to try and kiss her. Then I remembered she had a house and a good job, and was looking for the man who was going to giver a baby. And I knew I’d always be too hungry to give her any of those things, so it wouldn’t have been right. Instead I just sat there, the ghost of a long gone summer between us.

It felt good to not kiss for the right reason for once in my life though.

I see her pictures online now. She has her baby, just like she always wanted. It’s so beautiful how you can tell that she’s a lovely mother.

Now, it’s mostly just looking in on the living, occasionally rattling old chains. Sometimes she writes. Sometimes I still make it into her dreams. Some nights, like tonight, I still paint her. And it feels good to know I’ll never forget that summer.

Head’s right and heart is wild.

Mon, 19 Dec 2011 01:58:00 -0500

Head’s right and heart is wild.

Meanwhile on planet earth…

Sun, 18 Dec 2011 05:55:00 -0500

Meanwhile on planet earth…

However shitty you think you’ve got it right now, you have...

Sun, 18 Dec 2011 03:49:00 -0500

However shitty you think you’ve got it right now, you have more to work with than you realize; trust.

“The neighborhoods had always been heavy on the locals...

Sat, 03 Sep 2011 16:07:38 -0400

“The neighborhoods had always been heavy on the locals only vibe, but he was, I don’t know, religious about it. There were several landmarks in the area that he had some of the local kids venerating.” - Patricia DuBois

http://bit.ly/tower_zero

(catch up on part 1 before part 2 drops in the very near feature)

"I find religion to be very much the spiritual equivalent to fascism. And by that same token, magic..."

Sun, 17 Jul 2011 16:09:27 -0400

““I find religion to be very much the spiritual equivalent to fascism. And by that same token, magic becomes the spiritual equivalent of anarchy.””

- Alan Moore (from the book Mythmakers & Lawbreakers Anarchist Writers On Fiction)

Photo

Fri, 15 Apr 2011 04:48:51 -0400

If you’re not following the good people at weaponized...

Wed, 04 Aug 2010 00:55:00 -0400

If you’re not following the good people at weaponized already you should be. Fantastic books, music, and art:

Weaponized

“Hello, I’m a Mac, and I’m helping fuel the...

Wed, 21 Jul 2010 16:07:28 -0400

“Hello, I’m a Mac, and I’m helping fuel the war in the Congo — the deadliest war in the world. So are PCs, cell phones, digital cameras and other electronics. That’s what Apple’s famous ads don’t tell you. So actor/activist Brooke Smith and cinematographer Steven Lubensky teamed up with actors Joshua Malina and John Lehr to create a version that sets the record straight.

To learn more about conflict minerals and how you can help end war in the Congo, visit www.raisehopeforcongo.org.”

Banks Financing Mexico Gangs Admitted in Wells Fargo Deal

Sat, 17 Jul 2010 03:57:00 -0400

Banks Financing Mexico Gangs Admitted in Wells Fargo Deal:

I continue to be amazed at the number of people who say, without a hint of irony, that while anarchy sounds good, in reality it would end up with a bunch of violent thugs running the world.

Anarchy is social order folks. Everything you know? The world you’ve called home since birth? That’s social disorder propped up by violent thugs.

We cut ourselves open with keys. Desperate for new territories;...

Thu, 15 Jul 2010 22:27:00 -0400

We cut ourselves open with keys. Desperate for new territories; For higher dimensional places; For an end to one one kind of time; For the advent of another.

And when we bled, we bled Eden. And when we fucked, it was Armageddon.

Weaponized: Cirxus - Directors Notes

Thu, 15 Jul 2010 17:38:29 -0400

Weaponized: Cirxus - Directors Notes :

choronzon333:

Directors Notes - Cirxus - February 2009

Cirxus explores the re-emergence of radical consciousness in humanity and the destructive nature of it’s psychology over time, by examining the emotionally irradiated human mind through the looking glass of human superstition, theatric arcana and the…

http://brianshaughnessy.tumblr.com/

Continuity

Photo

A formidable and mysterious magic A slightly sexed up version...

A slightly sexed up version of a tattoo design I did tonight for an old and cherished friend. She wanted me to do it quickly and off the cuff. By this time tomorrow it will be inked into her skin, a lovely expression of the trust and the bond that exists between us.

0-71641-30001: churchofcyberpunk: neverlandnow: AFP -...

Purveyors Of The Arcane

We can show you how it works, for a price.

The real

MMXI

On the shores, organic machinery spread like yielding thighs;...

Ghost SummerOccasionally I get an email from her. Always short....

Head’s right and heart is wild.

Meanwhile on planet earth…

Meanwhile on planet earth…

However shitty you think you’ve got it right now, you have...

However shitty you think you’ve got it right now, you have more to work with than you realize; trust.

“The neighborhoods had always been heavy on the locals...

“The neighborhoods had always been heavy on the locals only vibe, but he was, I don’t know, religious about it. There were several landmarks in the area that he had some of the local kids venerating.” - Patricia DuBois

http://bit.ly/tower_zero(catch up on part 1 before part 2 drops in the very near feature)

"I find religion to be very much the spiritual equivalent to fascism. And by that same token, magic..."

Photo

If you’re not following the good people at weaponized...

“Hello, I’m a Mac, and I’m helping fuel the...

Banks Financing Mexico Gangs Admitted in Wells Fargo Deal

We cut ourselves open with keys. Desperate for new territories;...

Weaponized: Cirxus - Directors Notes

http://bit.ly/tower_zero

(catch up on part 1 before part 2 drops in the very near feature)